Hi Honey I'm Homo

   Right Now I'm in the process of packing up our home, and to me that's what the key word is the word Home because that is what we have had out here during our time in Florida. What I find amusing in a strange way is the concept of what home is and what home means's to not only myself but to people in general. 
    To me it may seem old fashion but one of the things I am most proud of is the fact that I have been able to make a home for my amazing Fiance and our little family because I feel that that is my privilege to do that. As I take apart our home I notice it is now changing it's self back into a house which is fine but I know that the heart of our home is missing at the moment because it's my half that brings the soul as together we light the fire of passion on what our home becomes. So now as our next chapter gets ready to start I know that the House Pookie finds for us will be one that I will have to take the the magic of our love to light it's heart and turn it into a home for us all. 

The Snuggle or not to Snuggle

Well it's time to start a new chapter in our story. Pookie started working for Marvel his dream job and so as a result we will be moving from Florida back to California and there are good things and sad things about that fact. Pookie and I talked about the fact that we are moving and the fact we can never look on the last two years as anything but a lesson in both togetherness and understanding. 
  The last two years Pookie and I have grown as a couple in ways I feel at times I can't find the words for but somehow have an understanding of. we have come to a point were we know and I say know that we will 1st of all marry each other and 2nd grow as old together because I love the idea of him being my grumpy old man. 
 Right now we are in different states as he starts working and I finish everything I need to do here so we can complete the move and send our kitties to him. What this is showing me is the sheer strangeness I feel from people when they ask me" If I'm happy to have time to my self" The answer is NO I mean why would I be given the fact that we love spending time together and have fun with one another.
  Now it's playing the waiting game to be back in each others arms and continue on with the writing of our love story. I know the time we spend apart is only a moment in the universe however to us it's an eternity that we want to speed through, given the fact that as long as we have know each other moments or better yet mere, seconds seems to last longer than we expect. I know this as we grow together we will just always love and live moments as an eternity and take it with laughter and joy. 
 

Stronger and stronger through laughter regardless of the pain

 The last couple of years pookie and I have learned what it mean's to be a true couple, what it mean's to have up's down's and what it mean's to be a team to be a couple. He's on his way to california right now and if everything works out he will have the job he want's in his field and we will then move back from florida to california and that's ok because what we have learned and gained being in florida is a gift we can never regret nor loose. it helps knowing we go back more in love and stronger than ever before. The Love we have by some may not make sense  but to us it is made with humor love and respect. After that what else is there.

So We're ruining marriage are we.

  It's been a little while sense I last wrote and In that time life as we say has gone on and gone on with no true sign of stopping at all. Which is how it should be it seems now over the last few weeks the beloved Fiance has been laid off from the company that brought us to Florida for the adventure  we have been on over the last two years.
  Now we are facing a new chapter to this life we have build and new chapter a new era if u will of what we will undertake and what we will do together as one unit as one family as we are. It's strange to me soooo much of what we hear and what we read says that "Gays" will destroy marriage will destroy life as we know it but how is that possible, given the fact that for instance Pookie and I have made that pledge to one another were we support and prop each other up through the darkness and hold each other's hands through the light. How are we not a Family in ever sense of the word.

  I know many things as I have gotten older and I know nothing as I have gotten older and for that I find my self grateful and yet humble as well. Because what this new chapter is truly teaching me is this is the time when I truly must have not only faith but truly believe in the bound that pookie and I have made over the years to be together though-out our ups and Downs and through better or worse. To me I know that the bound we have makes god very proud of us and all we do and I know it makes my beloved mother who is our guardian angel know what her son and the man who he has chosen to spend his life with are on the right tract. So I see how we are running marriage.

Being a grown up is soooo over rated

 Being together with pookie for all the time we have is sometimes a little surreal to me and what it means's to us at times. Pookie and I try all the time to make every moment count. I'm learning from listening to what other people say (or rather complane) about is that savoring every moment is something people forget to do and because of that they seem to treat each other in a way that says, "your the one who is ruining my life".
That to me seems like such a strange reaction to have to someone your suppose to love and respect, however that as well seems to be an issue in that respect seems to be something that so many people don't have in there relationships and I for one just don't understand why?
Pookie and I decided a long time ago that honesty will be a huge key to us being together and what we build together is supported by our work and our love. I know I have to and should be willing to support him any way I can in what ever way he needs and he does the same.

  More people then ever before seem to keep wondering what the secret is to being together so long and to tell the truth all I can tell them is that we love and respect each other and more important we make each other laugh. We make every moment count and we plan on doing that as long as we are on this plant together.

Wounded Heart

  I'm finding it very interesting, lately so many people I work with seem to be sooo wounded and what's worse is the wounds seem to run sooo deep in so many way's. I find that these story's are all told to me all the time and I try to find the ability to always listen with out judgment and try when I hear the words in my mind to offer the advice I feel may be needed at that time. 
   So many people I come across need to just feel like someone is listening and what I find so interesting is the fact that it's such a small act to do for someone yet it can mean so much in the long run.

  I know the heart's and the soul's of these people will find healing and peace with time I feel like there is no other option to helping them find there way from the dark into the light. I do know this that act alone can require more strength than anything else known to man. 
   

Symbol of Love

  Symbols of togetherness are an amazing thing when I think about them, it seems that in so many case's couple's on many levels have symbols of there bond, a bond that on so many levels that to the naked eye it would seem silly or strange however one thing I have learned over time is that a symbol is also a key.
  What I mean by that is a key to unlock the passion the fire the love, but more than that the trust. Over ten years ago one day walking in the mall pookie wanted to buy me a gift for my birthday and kept showing a choice between a dragon and a blue crystal cross and something told me to Pick the cross. What I found after that was it was a symbol of a foundation of trust we used as a bedrock to what we have grown into.

   I know that pookie has given me a gift to dream once more and I look to ever day to live this dream and to have us dance on a cloud if we wanted. As we grow we dream and as we dream we grow into a bedrock of what we will always be through time and space. Spouse's for life.