Friday, January 24, 2014
I found my self driving today in west Hollywood and was noticing how during the day the luster of this Town seems to have dulled it self during the day. What is interesting is that when I was younger and going through the process of coming out, West Hollywood to me seemed like this safe and in some respect magical place. A place to take the journey of discovery a place to learn what a young gay man should have learned when everyone else was learning how to date. I remember sneaking over to west Hollywood to watch and maybe to dance, to talk to a guy, I remember having my 1st real kiss and the song that was playing (total eclipse of the heart). Now what is so funny is that after many years, many nights of dancing Many hook ups. I know see West Hollywood with a different eye, I look at it with less luster and less shine. I see it as a place that at one time meant more to me than it does now, but like anything it is a place that needs to live and needs survive. I look now at being an older gay man who is married and has lived a life of lessons and at times a life of wonder/shock/laughter. I look now at west Hollywood as not a place for hook-ups but perhaps a place for a date night with my husband. A place were we can go to dinner maybe dance, peep some hot guys "wink" but go home more in love than before. I look now at being a husband as a time to maybe not party but be willing to have fun in different ways, maybe in ways to share the laughter and the joy and the wonder and the love with my husband. That is the best time we can have hands down.
Wednesday, January 15, 2014
I find that I am having a huge fabulous time being married and to many that may seen weird or strange, however The togetherness and the Love I feel coming from this crazy man I have bounded my self to two and how I feel about him and the sheer magical feeling we experience while in each others company almost has no words.
I find being married is hard work, imagine if u will working out or dieting, maybe studying for a test, what if u took all those things and put them together? If u did then u might start to understand the work that goes into being married. Were is it written that marriage is easy? were is it written that there will never be conflicts?
I find that being married is an adventure I have never been so happy to undertake, what this is teaching me though is how to be the person I want to be with less stress and fear but with the the will and the happiness to know that our story is still growing and still writing it's self and were will be next is soooo exciting to see.