Good Fag Hag is hard to find.

It's funny to me to see the reaction Mari and I get from our men...we seem many times to get the look of confusion or a look of ammmmm o.k sure what ever you guys want to do.

What I find funny with My friendship with mari is the fact that together we don't need to do anything big to have a good time..last weekend we went to Costco for a couple of hours and had a blast..I mean who does that, answer we do..

It's to bad more people don't have that kind of friendship or closeness with someone now a days it always seems that people are so busy and wrapped up in them self's that they forget to keep friendships going.

Relationships take work so why do some many people think there easy, because there not, I mean do mari and I always agree, answer no not by a long shot but we do know enough to be honest and talk it out..why because were friends...

La Mari may not be going with me to Florida in person however what she does not know is she will be there is spirt and with her fabulousness...I will have my La Mari Hot line and she has a place to vacation when ever she wants..(she can bring the husband if she has to )

A good fag hag is hard to find so I thank the lord I found the best in Mrs...La Mari {fag Hag} flores-Garcia..

Home is wear the pookie is

What's interesting about this adventure I'm on with pookie is all the 1st time things were doing together, like moving across country, getting a puppy and finding a new apartment, but it's not any apartment it's our big boy home..

We feel like the years we have been together are years were we have grown and we have learned, but the best part is were doing it with each other all the way...yes we each have our own chapter to this storey we are writing but the best part is how we are making sure our stories are always part of each other..

It's an amazing feeling to me to have an amazing man like pookie do all this to bring me home to him, to build a life with him and always thinking about what will make me happy no matter if he thinks it's crazy or not..:)

Pookie told me tonight we may have found us a home and the grown up way we are speaking about this is amazing given how we were nine years ago, just two sexy homo's in love with out a care in the world.

now we talk about whether it has a place for a washer and dryer, what's the fridge like and do we have closet space..it's great...What's really fun is the fact that this place pookie found would allow me to paint, I mean man my inner fabulousness will spill out I mean I would have to control my self with this, but wow and what's funny is pookie laughs about it and says I'm cute, of course I hope he still feels like that when our living room is purple.

The one thing I know is that this will allow me to make pookie the most amazing home ever if I do say so my self..and of course I do....

Does the outside match the inside..

I have had many conversations ,resonantly with friends like my self who are older about what it feels like to be older and if we do feel a difference.

When your young it seems you cant wait to grow up, to drive to have so called freedom. What I have to wonder is if we are ever as free as we are when we are children...

When you have that new wonder of like, as you learn and experience things for the 1st time, why is it we don't have the insight to know what we are going through is the magic of a new moment, a moment we will never see through new eyes again.

Sometimes I wish I could tell the younger me to lighten up a little and enjoy life the good and the bad, and that's another thing I am not 100% sure of and that is why we seem to believe life is suppose to be perfect at all times..I mean if it was would we learn what we are suppose to from what ever journey we are on.

When I was younger I loved aspects of my child hood with a vengeance..I mean I loved turning my G.I Joe's in to superheroes, making up stories of what there adventures are and will be..I learned you to love the word and the magic of fantasy and it's ability to take you to wear ever you want to go....

Being with pookie is interesting at times because he is younger, yet act's older than I do, but when I say that is it that he acts older I like a big child or better yet he acts just like he's suppose to and would be the same no matter what age he may be?

I say instead of the complaining many people do about everything, why not enjoy iife and what you have, not whine about what you don't...take a nap take a walk holding the hand of your lover, eat with no spoons, feel as young as you can with out the so called rules..remember we don't stop playing cause we grow old, we grow old cause we stop playing...

The Little things mean the most, but the big things are fabulous!!

I am in the second part of this journey with pookie as we get ready to close the chapter of our life that is California and getting ready to start the new chapter that is Florida...

What's so exciting is that we are doing this together at what seems a time in our life that we have both strength and courage not only with in our self's but what we give each other....

What I find right now is that pookie and I are finding new ways to show each other how much me love each other, how important we find each other in new ways...the distance we have right now between us means that we need to think, we need to make sure not to take each other for granted..

At time's when you have your lover with you it's easy to get to the point when you might not always go that extra mile to make sure your lover,partner, husband,wife knows no matter what that they are loved care for and respected.. It's funny to me that people will bitch and complain all the time about what there "better half" does not do...why don't they ever bother to tell what they do, do...

The other part I find very funny is how many people seem to only be out for what they can get from the other person and I wonder why is that..I mean if you have found love why does it have to come with a dollar sign and a dollar value.

The best things I have ever gotten from pookie are not things done with huge dollar value, but things that are done with heart and with soul...Pookie has told me he would do anything for me to make me happy and take care of me, but the thing he still seems to never believe is that one of the best gifts I get from him is to love him and hold him and take care of him..it means to me that I am taking care of my man and making sure to make sure he knows all the time he is my man...

The little things pookie does, yes they mean the most but the day I get my engagement ring will be a day of fabulousness for me. not because he spent allot, not because it's got huge jewels but because he gave it to me....My journey even after all these years is just beginning with this amazing man and I can't wait to see what the next chapter holds.....

Shadows That go bump

It's strange to me how bed time means sooo many different things depending on who you ask..to mom's it's there chance for rest cause the kids are down...to kids it's there last minuet chance for a drink of water or potty break...to some it means time for sex, to others it's there only moment were they can talk to their loved ones about how there day may be.

I find bed time right now a time of frustration, frustration in the fact that I do not like being alone and fined being alone with my own thoughts to this level not a thing of comfort but in many case's a hindrance.

I find brief moments were I do embrace sleep but sleep does not embrace me and will not let me stay with in her embrace...Missing pookie is making is an issue for us both, because neither of us can sleep and we both at this moment find we sleep in shifts with our phone's with in reach to be able to hear from there other at a moment's notice...

I know soon Pookie and I will be reunited and sleep with be the third in our bed and I for one can not wait for this is the only way to have a threesome were no one will get jealous at all.

Opposites in many cases do attract

The old saying is that opposites attract, and I have to tell you it our case it is true...yes pookie and I have different many difference, in our taste in music, books, movies and TV shows, but that's fun for us because it allows us to not only have
something to talk about but something to pick on each other for...

Couple's don't have to have everything in common I believe it's fine not to because you should be learning about each other all the time and just when you think you know your partner you should learn something new if your lucky.

Pookie is younger than I am but I love the fact he act's older..and people always think he's older but I love picking on him for this because to me is so wonderful to know that this younger guy is more man then most out there..

I mean here he is with a huge important big boy job but his 1st thought is always about my welfare and if I'm happy...How many men would do that....

Yes I act younger then pookie ( :P ) but my favorite thing is knowing I'm taking care of him and making sure that MY man is happy and has what he needs..

When I talk to people who are younger many times I am shocked but how selfish they are even when there in a relationship there all about me me me me, I then have to wonder why is that, why are they scared to care or better yet are they just not able to care...

It's o.k if people think were old fashion, we don't care because yes we know who we are with one another...I like taking care of My man, I like cooking for him cleaning for him and making sure he knows he's loved...pookie likes making sure I feel loved safe and happy, we have many difference's but the main one is the fact we love each other...

So that being the case we can do no wrong with what ever we do with each other in life....

Trust...why is that a dirty word

I love to watch my TV and lord knows Me and my talk shows work it...but there is a new thing happening it seems that I really don't understand...and that's why, why are people so reluctant to trust, not just anyone one but trust the people that they have suppose to have given there hart's to.

It seems every time you turn around someone is telling you how to crack your honey's e-mail, or read there text's messages, there are companies they show you how to cheat help you make an appointment to cheat I mean why, why is that needed....

Here I am in California with my wonderful man in Florida and yes I could be stupid and try to be shady and so could he and we would never know, but the fact is we made a deal with one another a long time ago to be truthful and honest with one another, because if you start keeping the truth from one another then why be together....

I know in my hart that the trust I have in pookie is unbreakable and what's more fabulous is he knows the same is true for me. That's our foundation that we have for our relationship and sometimes it sucks because you have to be a big boy whether or not you like it....

I will say this it's an amazing adventure I have undertaken with pookie and it's an adventure that I am riding out because this is the most fabulous storey I could every dream of and man it is fun....

How Do You Know

When you watch a movie or read a book there is always a magic moment between the love interest that is the 1st sign that something amazing is going to happen, something magical if you will, however is this moment real is it something you can hold, taste smell maybe feel?

I had to wonder that for many years, because like most of us whether or not that was real and if I would ever have that magic moment when the lighting would strike.

Nine years ago I had that moment with this amazing man of mine, on a phone call talking threw a new years in 2001 this amazing man let me know that I meant a lot to him, he thanked me for not letting him spend another year alone, but what was interesting to me is this man shared a better gift with me one even he never saw coming and that was a future a future I never knew was possible at that time.

Nine Years ago this man became the love of my life, but not just that regular love, that love you read about, maybe dream about but are never really sure could happen....

What I never knew was that buy loving this man and being loved by him in return, I would started on an adventure i never knew was possible for me, one that involves laughter, tears, smiles and dreams...of things yet to be.


I write about this amazing man, this magical man in words when at times words are never enough to let this man know how amazing I truly believe he is..

This man the love of my life is the magical lighting I always read about and I know that I have been blessed to be struck in the soul to the very core of my being by the magical lighting of love a love that threw life, threw death, threw time and threw space will be a love that will last for all time......


So to you My Love, My Hart, my life, My Pookie I say thank you for this journey we are on together, because baby we are and will always be a team that let's not challenge stand in it's way.....

Happy anniversary ....The next 90 years are going to be a blast!!!