Saturday, January 19, 2013
It seems silly sometimes to think about the fact that I love a Man who makes me feel as if I've known him longer than I've known my self. What that means's is to remember what Life is or was with out that love is an unknown factor and it's something That I don't believe Can ever be put into true words.
I make Pookie laugh at times because of the Love I have for romantic Movies and the stories that they tell but What I find very funny is the fact that Pookie thinks my reaction's to these movies is what tickles him the most and especially if I get teary they he's in stitch's. The fact is I know this but I still pretend to be miffed at him for laughing "truth is if he didn't laugh I would be so pissed" I know that the love that people talk about or better yet the love that they dream about is something for some reason I have been blessed with and it's the strenuous most fantastic thing in the universe. Imagine if you will being under a magical spell but never wanting to be free of that magic. Imagine as a part of that spell you feel your very soul has mered with that of the other person so that on some lever were you Begin and end is no longer known. I know very few things to be true But one thing is were Pookie and I are concerned we are of one heart, one Mind and one soul.
Tuesday, January 15, 2013
I find it funny That I at this stage in my life I am dealing with the issue of people not being OK with me being in a mood or having an issue that while they feel free to judge, however don't feel they can ask me how they could help or if I need something from them to help me through the time I am under going. What I have learn through this coming chapter that my life is writing right now is who I have truly let into my heart and the one's,I have have treated that as if I have given them a key to a secret club. People need to understand that My "behavior" unless it involves me slapping the hell out of u that it's not your concern. If My "behavior" is "snippy as some have said then ask your self If maybe I have a reason for it and Maybe I'm tired of doing your task and Mine. I Know this to be true, My Life is My Life and I have a good and happy life so your approval is neither desired nor required and who knows looks like your ass might just be a bit part after all.
Friday, January 11, 2013
Right Now I'm in the process of packing up our home, and to me that's what the key word is the word Home because that is what we have had out here during our time in Florida. What I find amusing in a strange way is the concept of what home is and what home means's to not only myself but to people in general.
To me it may seem old fashion but one of the things I am most proud of is the fact that I have been able to make a home for my amazing Fiance and our little family because I feel that that is my privilege to do that. As I take apart our home I notice it is now changing it's self back into a house which is fine but I know that the heart of our home is missing at the moment because it's my half that brings the soul as together we light the fire of passion on what our home becomes. So now as our next chapter gets ready to start I know that the House Pookie finds for us will be one that I will have to take the the magic of our love to light it's heart and turn it into a home for us all.
Friday, January 4, 2013
The last two years Pookie and I have grown as a couple in ways I feel at times I can't find the words for but somehow have an understanding of. we have come to a point were we know and I say know that we will 1st of all marry each other and 2nd grow as old together because I love the idea of him being my grumpy old man.
Right now we are in different states as he starts working and I finish everything I need to do here so we can complete the move and send our kitties to him. What this is showing me is the sheer strangeness I feel from people when they ask me" If I'm happy to have time to my self" The answer is NO I mean why would I be given the fact that we love spending time together and have fun with one another.
Now it's playing the waiting game to be back in each others arms and continue on with the writing of our love story. I know the time we spend apart is only a moment in the universe however to us it's an eternity that we want to speed through, given the fact that as long as we have know each other moments or better yet mere, seconds seems to last longer than we expect. I know this as we grow together we will just always love and live moments as an eternity and take it with laughter and joy.